Shivering (AEN)

I want to love you.
I want to take care of you.

I listened to this song, that made me feel as if you were here.
The music made me think of about us, about the memories that I have not lived yet and still have. Memories I dreamed, I hoped, I lingered to experience. 

Somedays I think that I am going crazy, looking for you in the faces of strangers.
Somedays I understand that at times we got to live on our own, live with ourselves, and enjoy the miracle of being alive.

I am still learning that, learning to truly love me as I am.

Maybe one day you will read all these letters and texts and understand how much I have loved you,
even before meeting you. I know it sounds too cheesy, but I am cheesy. I am looking for cheesy in my life, I have forgotten how it feels to be in love, to feel completed by someone else and feel invencible. I think that this cheesiness is truly a human thing, I hope everyone gets to be cheesy at least once in his or her life.

I will love you.
I will take care of you.

We will go to places we never have been. We will talk for hours and hours, sleepless hours. We will fight sometimes, but these fights will just bring us closer, will make us stronger. We will unveil more about ourselves, we will learn more about who we are and who we are becoming together.

And we will shiver.

Thank you for inspiring me, whoever you are... I am not sure if I know you already or not, but I feel you around. If you feel the same, please be bold and hold me in the darkness, kiss me, no questions asked. I am sure you will know that I feel the same way, my eyes never lie.

And we will disappear from Earth, or perhaps appear for the first time.

Until we meet again,

Lu

Kevin closed Lucía's diary, confused. He knew that he shouldn't had to be there, in her room, reading something as private as that. However, he couldn't help it, it was just there!

Lucía came back.

-Hey, sorry for taking so long.
-No problem.
-So... yes, the project. What do you think? Did you like the idea I just told you?
-Yes, I think it is fine.... mmm...
-Why are you looking at me like that?
-How?

Kevin felt that she could read him. Would she realize that he found her diary?

-I feel that you are checking me out or something.
-Checking you out?
-Nevermind, let me go for the tea, it most be ready now.

Perhaps he was checking her out. As she turned around and walked out of the room, he realized that he liked her, perhaps more than just a friend. Maybe reading her words made him realize that he wanted to be that man, maybe he was looking for cheesiness too. He walked out of the room, hoping to find out if he could read her eyes, as she said. He shivered. This could change everything...

And he went out. 

Electricity (AEN)

Silhouettes of you, everywhere.
I feel that you are here, so close, so near... Inside.
You never leave me and yet you never appear clearly.

Where are you?

I saw you again, in my dreams. We were walking around some city that seemed familiar. I have been sleeping too much lately, is it you? Are you pulling me back to you?

Who are you?

I have met you many times and yet never touched you, never felt you. I wonder how you smell and how your eyes would spark if they ever find mines.

Are you there?

I am trapped here, in this small room, trying to focus on irrelevant matters. At times I wonder what is really important, what is our real purpose.

Don't give up.

I keep making plans of what I have to do to become whom I dreamed when I was young. My plans got me this far, perhaps far from you... Am I?

Wake up.

I listen to the songs that I believe will belong to us. I hope to be ready to spot you when our pads finally cross. I have been waiting for so long, made all the mistakes I could have done with all the lovers that came before.

I am tired.

Sometimes I want to let you go, to give up on you and this nonsense epic story, because I know that I have been fine alone all this while. All those unfulfilled promises, all those pointless dreams, all those guys.... Do we actually need all these bullshit? Fuck Chikflicks!

It's fine. It has been illustrative.

The older you get, the more you know what you are looking for. The more that you know yourself, the less you let others upset you, the less you want to pretend, to be fake.

I will remain transparent. Fragile but unbreakable.

I hope that you will be transparent too. I hope you catch my weak put persistent voice, calling you. I am still here. Breathing.

We will meet soon.

It will be like a thunderstorm, it will be our turning point. All the rest were just learning curves, valuable friendships, warm memories. We will be different.

The world will never feel the same after that day. The day when we find ourselves again, not in my dreams but in this world. Earth.

And all the electricity...

Just electricity.