A letter for love (AEN)

February 13, 2018

Listen to Downtown by Majical Cloudz when reading this. 

I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me.

How you make me shiver when I wake up after dreaming about you. 

How you make me laugh, cry, or lose my breath while I stay still, remembering you.

And I know I moved on, we all need to get going with our lives. 

You are so far away, in every sense, in every dimension.

Yet, there are these brief and sporadic moments when I feel your heart beating inside mine. 

When I want to expand my energy for thousands of kilometers just to reach you, 

to feel you,

to breath your breath,

to touch your touch...

Linger, linger there... in that surreal moment when we existed, when we lived. 

Did all really happened?

Sharp memories of you are becoming foggy fantasies, fantasies of us. 

And I love you so fucking much, even now, when we don't talk anymore. 

At least not as often as we used to.

I hope that you know that. 

And words are running through my mind as fast as my synapses exploit while writing this. 

All the lexicon in my English or Spanish cannot express the numbness I feel,

I am paralyzed.
My mind is hypnotized by thoughts of you...

You will be forever mine, in the ephemeral time we shared,

and I will be forever yours.

Thank you for changing me, 

for completing my human condition,

because even now, that we are nothing, you make me feel alive. 

Alive in this love that prevails without you. 

I hope to see you again someday, 

and perhaps it wont be too late...
Because, regardless of everything,
I am going crazy, crazy for you. 

Forever yours,

Lu'ey