Lovely fall desires (AEN)

I want to fall in love again.
Free fall, no parachute, no net.

To feel that brief eternal instant of perfect imperfection,
of naive and pure faith,
of insane unstoppable happiness,
when you smile like an idiot because nothing else is bigger than that...
not a problem at work,
not a terrible miserable cold,
not your lack of sleep, because you can't get him out of your head.

I want to fall in love again.
Deeply and slowly, softly and gently.

To wake up with a silly smile on my face,
because he just texted, because he is smiling involuntarily too..
he is a cute lucky bastard who found love again,
just as you.
When every kiss is as good as the first one,
when holding hands becomes a delicate dance,
when dressing up is read as an art, just to impress him once more,
to get that look that makes you blush.

I want to fall in love again.
This time forever, this time for real.

To see the world through his eyes and feel it spin at our pace,
to share my dreams, to build a future,
to understand what lead characters in chick flicks portrait,
to remember how I felt when I was in high school, in college...
When I used to fall in love, or at least that is what I thought.

I want to fall in love again.
I do. 

Of aliens and planets... (AEN)

Time is inexistent for love, even distance is. 

As if these inexplicable human connections were as strong as steel, as immense as the universe, as deep as the core of the planet. 

Despite the fact that she had not seen him in months, she still woke up everyday with the sound of his laughter, and went to bed with the tears of his absence. 

She lingered for his stories and those secret moments of silence, where his eyes became two set of mysterious planets, yet to be unveiled, yet to be explored. And she had wondered in many other orbits, before and after him...

That night she watched a romantic film with her mother. While walking upstairs, to her room, her mom asked her if the movie reminded her of him. Lucia said no. And it was not a lie, truth is that she did not need a movie to have him in her mind. He was always there, continuously, as her heartbeat, as her breathing. 

She had felt like that many times. She had gotten lost in different sets of planets, some rocky, some gassy, some big, some small... It always hurt to let go, to move on, to continue in this trip of life, searching for a home planet to settle. 

However, this was different. 

This time it did not seem as a holiday trip. It felt as real home, real love. She found her planet and yet she was an alien. 

This whole real love situation was somehow more complicated than she thought. She did try to runaway, more than once. Landed in couple more planets, swam in new waters, breathed different atmospheres. Useless. How can she try to deny what was so obvious?

Why did she start to deny it anyway? And why was she an alien in that warm loved land?

Simple.

He gave up on her. 

As time passed by, his eyes did not meet hers as before. 

He changed. 

As all planets in the universe... he eventually cooled down. Evolved. Forgot. 

His orbit somehow changed course, and Lucia was trapped in an emotional wormhole, between past and present, totally uncertain about her future. 

Alien. All that she was, all that she felt. 

Alien. All that he saw, all that was left.